About Emily Atack: Adulting

In the grips of a quarter-life crisis, Emily is battling the big-life questions plaguing women her age, such as: Should I have kids? Am I too fat? How can I find love? Am I too selfish? We have a front- row seat as Emily navigates the glitz and glam of her celebrity work-life whilst embarking on a deeply personal journey to get to the bottom of the angst central to everything she does ... with plenty of laughs along the way. But will she nail this Adulting thing?

Emily Atack

What attracted you to Adulting in the first place?

I've always asked these questions in my life, since I was a little girl. I've always wanted the fairy-tale prince, the fairy-tale dream life and I've always wanted to be a good person, so when the opportunity came along for me to do a programme like this, which essentially covers every single topic that I have wondered about my entire life, I wanted to grab it with both hands, it felt like the perfect time.

What are the topics that you've covered in the series?

The topics that we've covered in this series are dating, should I be having children by now, body confidence and am I too selfish? It's all stuff I constantly talk about. I feel like at my age, it's always the subject of conversation with me and all my friends.

So how does age play into it?

I think age plays into all of this because I feel like I'm at an age where it's the quarter-life crisis club, it's this new term everyone's using. It's not quite a midlife crisis, but we're all kind of being thrown into adulthood when we still feel like teenagers. I say we, this is how I feel about life. I feel at my age, I should feel like a grownup now and I'm still being tucked into bed, eating Minstrels and feeling quite lost sometimes. I feel like a lost little kid in a supermarket and I can't find my mum.

What do you want to get out of Adulting? Is it solving that feeling of lostness?

I would definitely say that I've been soul-searching at the moment. I feel like I'm getting to a point where I'm becoming a little bit more stable with who I am and I'm hoping to get just a little bit more self-acceptance (out of this). People constantly say to me you can't keep making the same mistakes over and over again. OK, fine, I'll just go on and make new ones, and that's okay.

Sum up Adulting for the W viewers...

Well, I hope it's going to be fun, insightful, educational and just a good old hoot really. I want people to watch it and maybe escape their own life for a bit, just realise they are not alone and we're all in this together. Life is difficult, but if you just look at everything with comedy eyes, you can get through a day without bursting into tears.

Any Stand Out moments for you?

Well, the most hilarious thing for me throughout this whole process - I ordered a bed. I moved into my own place for the first time, living on my own, and at the start of it, I ordered a bed and it came. I was really hungover and I was asleep in the spare room and I just let them get on with it, let them build it, and then they said bye, we're done. I got up from my hangover state and walked into my room and the bed took up the ENTIRE bedroom. I had a full breakdown, didn't know what to do and I couldn't move in my brand-new bedroom for so long because I'd ordered this wrong-sized bed. It's become a weird analogy and theme throughout the whole thing. I've also done it with a sofa, I had to cancel a sofa because I didn't realise you had to measure furniture before putting it in your house. It's all these little, laborious tasks of life that I just can't seem to get a grip of. They seem so simple, but I just can't do it. The stuff I order is always too big, it never fits. That's the stand-out moment for me. I'm hoping by the end of this series that I have a bed that fits my bedroom that I can sleep soundly in at night.

So you're nearly 30, when you were 15, what was your life plan versus your life plan now?

Oh, when I was 15, I was certain I'd have a mansion by now, with a chocolate fountain in the garden and a McDonalds in my living room like Richie Rich. I think that's what we all think life is going to be like by the time we hit 30. That's a bit of an exaggeration, but I feel like when you're 15, 30 seems like a really grownup age, that's the time when you've met your prince and you've got two dogs running around, you've got a nice baby bump, with another baby on your arm and everything is all lovely. But now I'm hitting 30, I'm thinking OK, I still feel like a 15-year-old, so I'm confused.

So was there a single moment that made you think 'I need to grow up'?

I think it's moments like when it's Sunday morning and you've woken up in Fulham. You don't live in Fulham, you live miles away from there, you've woken up in a bath, with a traffic cone on your head. That's when you think OK, I've really got to start getting my shit together. That has happened one too many times for me. That's all great, that's all fun but it's also a bit depressing.

What skills do you wish you'd absorbed as a teenager?

Oh my God, I go on about this all the time, the skillset we should be taught when we're at school, it's what a mortgage is, we're not taught about tax, how to save money, limited companies. We're not taught about all these things that are actually important, buying a property, dating. I don't need to know what pi means in Maths, I get pied by men in life. That's the only kind of pie-ing I know. I need to know all the things that are actually coming up for me in life. Most of the stuff I was taught at school, I do not need to know that now. I need to know how to pay a bill on time, where the fuse box is in the house. It makes me sound like an absolute moron, but I can guarantee I'm not alone in this. Or am I? Oh Jesus.

If you're an adult, does that mean you're going to have less fun?

Yeah. I think the problem is that when I think about being an adult, one associates that sentence with the fun stopping. Then I look at my parents or I look at a lot of adults I know and they're still out getting drunk and having fun. I guess it's just getting a balance on things and getting your priorities in order a little bit. My problem is I just want to have fun all the time, for the rest of my life and I don't want anybody to tell me I can't.

Tell us a bit about the first episode, Should I Have Kids?

So the episode is about children, it's a really interesting one. It's a question I think most girls my age are asking themselves, should I be thinking about having kids now, because I'm 29 and it kind of means I should be thinking about my little eggs and if they are still nice and poached, poaching away in there, or are they scrambled? Am I completely screwed because I've waited too late? If I'm not even close to getting married now, what does that mean for my future with children? What does that mean for my little eggs because what we're taught is your biological clock is ticking and that's not just a phrase, that's completely true and should I have my eggs frozen in that case because I'm not on the road to marriage at all? I'm worrying that I'll get to 32, still not anywhere close to having kids, so is 29 the kind of age you should really start thinking about it when I still feel like a baby now.

Why do you think we feel we need to have kids?

I think a lot of women just feel this thing, it's a very natural thing to believe we're just put on this earth to have kids. It's a real shame we feel this way, that we're just put here to pump some babies out and be mothers, because there are some people on this earth that don't want to be mothers and they're completely chastised for that. That's not fair and we explore that as well in the episode. I think for me, just the thought of having a family is really appealing because I've grown up in such a loving, big family, so I think you repeat behaviour. I used to look at my Grandma Betty when she was alive and think God, she's surrounded with all of us, she's got so many grandkids, so many kids and that's what I want. It's more that I don't want to be a lonely old person, I want to be surrounded with family on my last days.